I recently heard the song Help me Find it by Sidewalk Prophets and I think this song describes where I am right now.
“If theres a road I should walk, help me find it
And if I need to be still, give me peace for the moment
Whatever your will, whatever your will
Can you help me find it”
I often worry over what direction God wants me to take and I think I often forget that sometimes I just need to be still and lean on Him. I think, right now, God is trying to get me to learn how to lean on Him and depend on Him.
This is just my opinion, but I think that if all of us would trust and lean on God more, we would all be a lot happier.
The last few days, I have busied myself with cleaning, cooking, laundry, friends, kids, and just about anything else I could to avoid the pain. I simply don’t want to feel the pain. This is the only way that I’ve ever known how to deal with hurt/pain in my life. I never learned how to successfully fail or suffer. So now, as an adult – a wife and mom, I am having to learn how to endure pain while not shutting the world out and how to experience hurt without shutting out the pain.
My prayer now, is that God will help me find out how to do that.