When things are going right, it’s real easy to trust that God’s got this under control. But when things have gotten out of control and you’re wondering how you ended up where you are, it’s not so easy.
You see, right now things are going pretty smoothly for me. Hubby and I are great, the kids amaze me every day, and I am simply…happy. which, for anyone who’s known me for any length of time, you know that happiness has not always come very easily for me.
I have, for a long time, struggled to find happiness. I search high and low and in many horrible places to find it. But happiness always seemed just out of reach. Everyone else seemed to have it and I wanted it…but I could never grab a hold of it.
It seems almost odd to me in a way, that I am this happy. Things aren’t perfect and there are a lot of things I wish I could change, and I’m okay with that. I’m okay with my lore being less than perfect. I’m okay with not living up to the expectations of others. I’m okay with being a stay at home mom and wife even though I have a degree ans some people think I should go back to work. But mostly, I’m okay with the fact that my life, as hectic as it can be at times, is in the hands of an almighty God who knows me, inside and out, and will provide for me everything I need.
It simply amazes me sometimes, the ways in which Hid has transformed my heart. And knowing that age’s not finished me yet, just blows me away. He’s already given me so much, it’s almost unfathomable that He would even consider giving me more.
God has placed some wonderful people in my life who have been so supportive and encouraging. He has, I believe, given me these pepper to show what He can do and how age can change my life, if I’ll only let Him.
So when things are going right and good on my life, I will honor God. But I will hlalso honor Him when things aren’t going my way because it ia through those things that He will perfect me and mold me into who He created me to be.