There’s a certain anguish that ensnares the writers soul when a writer doesn’t write. Maybe you think that I’m being a little over dramatic; but the truth is, unless writers write, they will live in a world of mental and emotional turmoil…or maybe this is just me, maybe other writers don’t feel this way. But I can’t believe that I’m the only one.
My mind is in constant motion. I hear/see/think of something inspiring, and if I don’t write it down right then, it’ll probably get lost in the disorganized chaos of my brain. My creative mind is a blessing and a curse. My thoughts often center on what I can create, what kind of art can I write, that will glorify God and show others the greatness of who He is?
In the book Pursuing Christ, Creating Art, which is one of my favorite books, Gary Molander talks about how artists feel things on a deeper level than non-artists. There are higher highs and lower lows. Life is lived through a series of Heaven and hell experiences. There is seldom a middle ground when it comes to the emotions of an artists. Why, you ask? This is because the greatest, most inspiring art, in whatever form it may come in, is created from the depths of pain or the heights of joy. In between feelings do not create great art.
But this way of feeling things can get incredibly exhausting. The higher highs are great, those moments are priceless. Those are the moments I hold on to in the lower lows. The lows are extreme, they are painful, and they often pull me away from my writing. But when I slip away from writing, my life turns chaotic. Life start to slip into a state if confusion and anger; and even though I know the answer is, sit down and write, I often don’t want to fight the battle of getting the words out of my head.
You see, for me, and I’m sure many other writers (or any kind of artist), when creative thoughts and ideas come into our minds, we want to get them out. We want to get them into a tangible form and create art with them. But when we ignore the thoughts, when we set aside the ideas…our brains become clouded with our own creativity and then getting it out isn’t fun anymore, it’s hard and sometimes painful.
It’s not always about a great piece of art, sometimes I just need to write so that I can process the chaos of the world around me. Writing my thoughts, journaling, helps me to understand my feelings and circumstances more clearly and look at things with a less emotionally irrational perspective. Writing is not just about creating art, but it’s also about giving in to one of the deepest needs of my heart.
I think, this is why many writers on TV/movies/books are portrayed as insane…it’s what I like to call, crazy writers brain. It’s when too much is happening in my head at one time, I am, in a way, over stimulated. And until I get the thoughts out, until my words go from my head to my hands, I find it hard to process the world around me.
So to all the writers out there, keep writing…even when it hurts. If God gave you the gift of writing, don’t waste it, you never know who you may be inspiring. Let your emotions, joyous or depressed, lead you to create great art!